huh?comes from just complete amazement!The things that come out of people's mouths,the things they do and the things they ask you to do.I just usually stand around with my mouth hung wide open going huh?
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Unconditional love can't be bought or faked,it's something that you have to give or you don't.I knew one person truly capable of this in my life and now she is gone.She always smiled.I always found that amazing,how can someone be always happy.I guess maybe it comes from inner peace.It seems like she made an event out of life.She didn't just get through it like alot of us do.Everyday she got up just thinking about what to do or say to make all of us happy.I know that we too many times just took that for granted.How I wished I hadn't.I really don't believe she ever had an evil or unpure thought.Amazing!She was just happy to be and to take care of her family.All the things that we women(or men) do day to day, like house cleaning,cooking,etc. she actually enjoyed it.I wish I was more like her.I don't know if she enjoyed the chores or just enjoyed them because she was doing it for us.I remember her dancing as she cooked,that is one of my favorite memories.She would let me watch on tv whatever I wanted,cook me 12 pieces of cinnamon toast,scratch my back for hours when I was little,and spend the whole day just talking to me.I believe that everybody has that one special person that grabs their heart and never let's go.I know I'll never let her go.
I joined a couple of charities today,both cancer organizations.It is something that is very close to my heart.It is a disease that ruins lives,families,and dreams.I lost my grandmother first,she died of brain cancer.I loved her more than my own life.There is not a day that goes by that I still don't need her.I will miss her for life!Then,cancer took my grandfather.I loved him dearly.I owe everything I have today to those two people.But,I know their soaring through the heavens as I type this.
Monday, August 10, 2009
I love kids and dogs,not much I wouldn't do for either.Through the last couple of years,we had our number of gypsy kids.These are kids that really don't have parents that give a damn about them or are too caught up in their own lives or addictions to take care of them.We have a 18 year old boy here now,he's only been here off and on for the last couple of weeks.But,he really doesn't have a stable place to stay,so he's staying here.Which I don't mind at all,he's a good kid.I wonder how a parent,a mother especially can just abandom their children.I know his mother is having issues right now but her son should be her main concern.But,I guess I shouldn't judge.Kids need some sort of real stability and to know someone always has their back.There is nothing in the world that I wouldn't do for my son and most parents feel the same way I do.To the parents that don't,we'll take care of your kids and we will also reap the benefits of having their love and respect,something you threw away.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Down here in Texas where I live at,things are slower paced.We don't have the hustle and bustle of the big city life.I could never make it through heavy traffic,without going to jail probably.I don't have the patience.So,I keep my butte down here.We can hear the crickets chirping all night ,hear the coyotes howling,and the birds singing in the morning.It's a nice life,but it also has it's little inconveniences.A possum,armadillo,or some other type of creature can try to live under your house.We see snakes almost weekly,I have one that lives in my monkey grass that's around my biggest tree in the front yard.I should make him move,but I just haven't yet.Then we have to tie down the trashcans because wild dogs etc. turn them over at night just trying to get something to eat.But,those are just part of country life.I like to think that I could love the city life again,but as I get older I don't think I could keep up anymore.So,it's time for me to feed the dogs,water the birdbath,put feed out for the birds,and maybe throw out some peanuts for the squirrels.It's gonna be a beautiful country day!
Friday, August 7, 2009
All I think about lately is running away.I know it's not an option but it makes me really happy to day dream about it.It's not that my life is bad,Actually my life is pretty good.No real complaints.So,I asked myself why do I keep a packed bag in the trunk of my car that no one knows about.I don't know,so I ve been thinking about it alot lately.I remember my childhood dreams,wanting to join the peace corp,be a rockstar,travel the world,marry a knight,know five languages and so on.Not one of these dreams came true,in which I only have myself to blame.So,I guess I need to set a new set of dreams and make at least one of them come true.But,as I get older,I can't really think of no new dreams to hope for.My dreams now concern my son,hoping he'll go to college,praying he'll stay out of trouble,wanting him to stay healthy and for him to have a wonderful life.And yes I know that's what parents are supposed to want.But,we also shouldn't give up on our own needs,wants and desires.I think it takes happy parents to raise a happy child.I have to find my own way again soon, as he is already fifteen years old and soon to become a man.That whole last sentence depresses me and makes me happy all at the same time.I'm scared to think of living my life without my son under my roof,but I know it's coming.That means,I have to find my own life and happiness all over again.He's been my whole life for so long.Now,getting back to what I was originaly talking about,running away.Life has become quite stressful at times lately and maybe I'm not dealing with it well.But,I will start making my own real life dreams come true and if not I got a bag packed in the car ready to go.Once I pack up my son,my two dogs,my pillow and fan,we'll leave.Maybe, that's really not running away at all.Sounds more like moving.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
I'm what you might call a hardass.I like things my way,I like things done right.If your going to do something,don't do it half ass.If you do them half way, then why bother doing them it all.I also have tons of pet peeves,much to my husband's dismay.I'm constantly having to remind him to turn the light off,close the cabinet door,shut the silverware drawers,put that up,put this up and so on and so on. I just don't get it!How can you open something and not feel compelled to shut it back closed?I spend most of my days going behind someone doing these things because of some unknown reason they simply can't do it.Maybe,I'm making too much out of the whole deal.But,try going to the bathroom in the middle of the night and falling in,get up to get go get a drink and hit your head or your eyeball on a cabinet door,walk by and fall in the kitchen over a drawer that has been left open,fall over somebody's shoes in the middle of the floor and so on.I think you get what I'm saying.Next time someone leaves their shoes in the middle of the floor,I'm super glueing them to the carpet!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
I was watching The View today.Love that show,love to hear them girls gripe.You got 5 totally different attitudes and opinions with these women.I tend to agree with all of them on different topics except for Elizabeth.She has no heart or soul for the poor person or the addict etc.She seems to think that everyone can have it as good as her.That's simply not true.Most people work hard their whole life and at the end still can't afford insurance or anything else extra.But,back to my topic.I was thinking about my own life today and realizing I should be a lot more thankful and appreciative of who and what I have.But,it seems like we spend more time dwelling on what we don't have. I have a nice home,awesome car,handsome son,good husband,sweet mom,2 beautiful dogs,financial stability,and all my teeth and hair.What more could I ask for?(a new Vette')
Every single day,all I hear about is people bashing Pres.Obama.I have to ask myself why?Are we such a civilization now where we expect instant results?Everything is instant now.We went from instant toast to instant messages.Our President has only been in office for around seven months,he has not had time to change the world yet.He inherited a huge deficit,two wars,and tons of government lies and back stabbing.I really believe Pres.Obama's heart and mind are in the right place.So,instead of bashing him,let's be supportive of our President.He needs and deserves all of our ideas,love,faith and most of all our support!
One Sunday in a midwest city,a young child was "acting up"during the morning worship hour.The parents did their best to maintain some sense of order in the pew, but were loosing the battle.Finally the father picked up the little fella and walked sternly up the aisle on his way out.Just before reaching the safety of the foyer,the little one called out loudly to the congregation,"Pray for me;pray for me!"
Monday, August 3, 2009
Beans.I hate beans!My hubby is a redneck 100 percent,who of course loves beans.I have never made him beans.I think they look like roaches.Wouldn't eat them for all the money in the world!yuk!But,anyway I've decided to try and make him some beans and ham in the crockpot.I'm a pretty good cook,or so I hear.Well,I don't know how to make beans.I'm probably the only Texan girl that don't.I put water in the crockpot and took the beans out of the bag like I've seen people do.They seperate the bad beans from the good beans.They all look bad to me.Throw em' in the pot,I threw some chopped onions in there and of course the ham later.Now,what?I've been watching em' do nothing for about 3 hours.When do they turn into real beans?I'm not really sure.I'm glad my day's open.
You know we all want our kids to be well liked(popular) and generally happy with who they are.With my son,that's no issue!He is very self confident and never afraid to speak his mind.I don't have to worry about him falling to peer pressure.I know when he does things good or bad,it's because he chose it.But,I'm starting to worry if maybe his confidence is turning into arrogance.He stands in front of the bathroom mirror for hours and hours admiring himself and he has dozens of pictures of himself.It also doesn't help that 10 to 15 girls come by every day looking for him(just had 2 knock at 9:30 a.m. this morning)and tons of phone calls every day.All with the same question"Is Drew here"?Some might think I'm bragging,maybe a little but the fact is I'm really starting to wonder if this ever going to slow down some.I am very proud of my son.He will be a great man someday.We all want our kids to be more happier and more popular and more everything than we were.I think I got my wish.Be careful what you wish for!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
This is in response to my own blog last night,that I erased.For those that read it ,you'll know what I'm talking about.Things are finally better today.It seems like every relationship is about power struggle.Who's the boss and who's not.I'm old fashined in the fact that I believe the man is the boss(to a degree).But,don't abuse the power I give you over me.I,as any person likes and needs to be respected.He is a good man who takes really good care of me.I do appreciate all that he does and I try to show him that.But, sometimes like everything else ,it gets lost in the day to day living.All the things that we should be saying to each other and doing for each other gets cast aside.I'll try to love him more,smile at him more,and hold his hand more.He owns my heart.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
So,he gets up this morning to go to work.He pissed me off last night,so I didn't wash his work clothes.I wake up and this guy is wanting to cut the legs off his NEW phants!huh? I guess that'll teach me!So,I promptly made his lunch to take to work,chips,cookies,2 cinnamon rolls,and 2 sandwiches minus the meat!ha!I think I won!
Friday, July 31, 2009
After all this time together,my hubby has decided he's going to be the boss!huh?WTH!So,I said ok(smirking) go ahead.I said I was going to the store today and his reply was "you didn't ask permission".huh? Are you freakin"kidding me" was my reply.Now,he's telling me what I'm cooking for dinner,what I can and can't wear,and when and if I can go anywhere!I must surely be in the 7th level of hell!This is exactly why he's sleeping alone tonight.I haven't figured out my revenge yet,but I'll have it in motion soon.In a few days, he'll be the one saying"huh?"